Confuse

This is just plain madness
When will it end?

I’ve suffered enough
I want it to end!

I’m trying so hard,
Yet is not even enough?

I’m so lost
But I’m hopeful to find my way back!

I want to move on
But you just kept on coming back!

I just need to end it
And not waste more time...

I know it was wrong
And now it's time to make things right!

This isn't fair
I never asked for this...

I might have some options
But I chose to stay

So here I am
Questioning myself?

Saving what's left of me...
Moving Forward!

Final Act

It’s the end, and it finally hit me...
I've hang on for too long, for something that never existed
I've wasted my time holding on, and wishing for more
I've suffered enough, that I can't even feel the pain anymore

it's bitter sweet...
loving someone unconditonally
accepting the fact that i was only an option, and not a choice to choose
knowing that i deserve someone, yet i settled for less

i've done everything i could...
and i end up contradicting myself most of the time
it should have ended a long time ago
but i kept doing the same mistake, over and over

i'm walking away, and i'll never look back...
i'll never have to play the what if's of life
for it ended the way it should be
i'm better off without you

no more tears, and feeling numb inside...
i might have lost a grip on reality
but tomorrow is another day
it's the final act, but it doesn't mean that you'll be the last!

Curious

Am I just curious about you?
Or am I attracted to you?

I know it’s complicated…
Yet I’m still eager to know you more…

It doesn’t make sense!
How I look forward of hearing from you everyday

That my day is not complete
Without seeing you or knowing that you’re there

You’re presence is my absence
And I can’t help but wonder…

I never felt this before!
No one ever made me feel this way…

So, do I really need to know?
Or should I let it go…

A Moment

I pulled away for a reason,
Even though it felt so good holding you close…
I can't read your mind,
So I did what I thought was right

I thought I was dreaming, when you we're holding me in your arms
But there you were, standing right in front of me
I wanted more, but I don't know what your real feelings are
Maybe I had doubts, since I’ve been here before

I kept playing that moment, and not wanting it to end
I could have asked for more, but can you give me as much?
I can only wish, but I’ll be wishing for a miracle
To hope is not accepting the fate that we have, knowing that there is no chance!

I closed my eyes, and I can feel the warmth of your caress
I can hear the beat of your heart
And I can taste your sweet lips
I look into your eyes and I don’t want to let go!

It might be wrong, but it felt so right…
We met at the crossroad and I need to decide
No matter which way I turn, what matters, is that I found you!
What’s next is a question? I don’t really want to know the answer…

I can easily walk away, and lie about how I feel
But I rather be true, and take it from here
I've got nothing to lose, when we're not even trying
I never felt this way before and that's for sure...

Lost

I’m no better than a used car
Whose tires are running flat

With one of the headlights busted
And a shattered window

And all I can hear
Is the squeaking sound of my brakes

My headlights flashing
And the loud noise of cars honking

What am I doing?
Am I crazy?

Have I lost my mind?
When I ran a red light

My thoughts are thousands miles away
While my heart beats fast

And all I can remember
Are the memories of the past

As tears roll down my face
I finally realized

I’m at a crossroad
And I don’t know were I’m heading

Red lights were flashing
And I continued driving

I kept on speeding
And swerving in and out of the lanes

I was running out of gas
And there are no exits in sight

As I step on the brakes
My car kept rolling

In an unfamiliar place
Were strangers are staring

I screamed for help
But no one came

I look at the mirror
And I don’t recognize the person looking back at me

I broke all the rules
And this is where it got me

I've reached a dead end
And there's no turning back

With a broken car and a broken heart
I've lost everything that I have

With no where to go
I stand in the dark

Waiting for someone
To finally give me ride

Questions

Does it matter that I'm here and you're there?
Will it make a difference if you're here or I'm there?

Do I care if people say things about you and me?
Knowing that they're right and what were doing is wrong..

Does it matter if I don't know you that much?
And all it takes is seconds to connect to a person…

Do you think I ask too much of your time?
When all we can do is talk on the phone…

Does it bother me that I'm just one of those girls you've met?
Knowing that there is no future between us…

Did you know that in spite of the odds?
I'm being hopeful, and I'll be waiting for you…

Do you think that I still have doubts about you?
Asking the same questions, over and over again…

Did you even ask yourself why I wanted to be with you?
Knowing that you're not the perfect guy for me…

Do you even think about us?
For what we have and where this "us" is going to...

Will you keep me in your life?
Though I know I'll never be part of it...

Should I stay or should I let you go?
And pretend that we haven't met...

Do I have a choice? Or should I ask for more?
Knowing that I already have you...

No matter what you say or do,
No matter what they think about us…

All that matters to me now, is that your in my life!
It might take days, weeks, months or even years,
Before I finally meet you…

But I'm holding on… for both of us!
Believing in your words and asking these questions…

unexpectedly

it ended too soon...
when we're barely starting

think we've gone too fast...
thats we've left off the important things that we should have talked about in the beginning

i knew it was a dream...
since it was too good to be true

i guessed it right...
that one day i'll wake up, and you'll be gone

then all i have left...
are memories of what we once had

those times you made me feel special...
those kind words you used to tell me...

the nights we've spent together
holding each other hands
and laughing our hearts out

it might have been short that we've met...
but i'll always have the great memories to cherish

i have all these questions i wanted to ask...
but do i really want to hear the answers?

maybe not knowing is better...
than hearing the truth that would tear me apart

i never asked to meet someone like you...
i never expected to even fall for you...

it is what it is...
i lived each moment i had with you

but here i am...
mending my broken heart

remembering the memories we had...
as tears roll down my eyes