Lost

I’m no better than a used car
Whose tires are running flat

With one of the headlights busted
And a shattered window

And all I can hear
Is the squeaking sound of my brakes

My headlights flashing
And the loud noise of cars honking

What am I doing?
Am I crazy?

Have I lost my mind?
When I ran a red light

My thoughts are thousands miles away
While my heart beats fast

And all I can remember
Are the memories of the past

As tears roll down my face
I finally realized

I’m at a crossroad
And I don’t know were I’m heading

Red lights were flashing
And I continued driving

I kept on speeding
And swerving in and out of the lanes

I was running out of gas
And there are no exits in sight

As I step on the brakes
My car kept rolling

In an unfamiliar place
Were strangers are staring

I screamed for help
But no one came

I look at the mirror
And I don’t recognize the person looking back at me

I broke all the rules
And this is where it got me

I've reached a dead end
And there's no turning back

With a broken car and a broken heart
I've lost everything that I have

With no where to go
I stand in the dark

Waiting for someone
To finally give me ride

Questions

Does it matter that I'm here and you're there?
Will it make a difference if you're here or I'm there?

Do I care if people say things about you and me?
Knowing that they're right and what were doing is wrong..

Does it matter if I don't know you that much?
And all it takes is seconds to connect to a person…

Do you think I ask too much of your time?
When all we can do is talk on the phone…

Does it bother me that I'm just one of those girls you've met?
Knowing that there is no future between us…

Did you know that in spite of the odds?
I'm being hopeful, and I'll be waiting for you…

Do you think that I still have doubts about you?
Asking the same questions, over and over again…

Did you even ask yourself why I wanted to be with you?
Knowing that you're not the perfect guy for me…

Do you even think about us?
For what we have and where this "us" is going to...

Will you keep me in your life?
Though I know I'll never be part of it...

Should I stay or should I let you go?
And pretend that we haven't met...

Do I have a choice? Or should I ask for more?
Knowing that I already have you...

No matter what you say or do,
No matter what they think about us…

All that matters to me now, is that your in my life!
It might take days, weeks, months or even years,
Before I finally meet you…

But I'm holding on… for both of us!
Believing in your words and asking these questions…

unexpectedly

it ended too soon...
when we're barely starting

think we've gone too fast...
thats we've left off the important things that we should have talked about in the beginning

i knew it was a dream...
since it was too good to be true

i guessed it right...
that one day i'll wake up, and you'll be gone

then all i have left...
are memories of what we once had

those times you made me feel special...
those kind words you used to tell me...

the nights we've spent together
holding each other hands
and laughing our hearts out

it might have been short that we've met...
but i'll always have the great memories to cherish

i have all these questions i wanted to ask...
but do i really want to hear the answers?

maybe not knowing is better...
than hearing the truth that would tear me apart

i never asked to meet someone like you...
i never expected to even fall for you...

it is what it is...
i lived each moment i had with you

but here i am...
mending my broken heart

remembering the memories we had...
as tears roll down my eyes

My Feelings

days have past
and years gone by...

my tears have dried
and my hopes have died...

i finally accepted
the fate that i have...

without looking back
i'm starting a new life...

you!

you came into my life unexpectedly
not knowing who you were
uncertain of tomorrow
unclear of your motives

you caught me by surprise...
i poured my heart out
didn't think twice
didn't have any doubts

you were this perfect man...
i've waited for so long
it just felt right
and i let you into my life

everything went fast...
and things got out of hand
you've turned into a total stranger
i don't seem to understand

for whatever reason
the answer was obvious
i didn't know you too well
and i played your game!

our fate

Does it take to be genius to figure you out?
Or you’re just a mystery…

Do I need codes to decipher you?
Or I just need a lot of patience to put the pieces of the puzzle together…

Either way, I did my best…
I tried and here I am once again!

I’m sitting here thinking, how easy it is to talk to a stranger
And completely open up, knowing that you’ll never see them again

And it takes a lot of patience to really know someone
To let someone into your life, not knowing if you can trust them

Being honest enough to show your real feelings
Without expectations … without hesitations

But here I am questioning myself…
Asking If I did the right thing?

Because there’s that constant doubt and fear
That you were not who I thought you were…

I tried so hard to fight what I’m feeling…
To hold back, and not to get caught up

But staying away didn’t get me very far…
And my curiosity led me straight to you

There are so many questions to ask…
But there is no time to spare!

How long should I hang on still...
When the present doesn't seem to have a future
When the truth is right infront of me...
And I'm hesitant to see!

I might not understand it now...
But it was plain and simple!

It is our fate...
And we should take it from here!

For it seems like we lost connection…
And things meant to end this way!